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Instinct, memory, and
longing drive my work. Seemingly disparate
images executed with varying strategies are
folded into an emerging autobiographical
narrative. The growing whole explores
Girlhood, the guilty transgressions of
fantasy, and the horror I find in the human
body. An empty house sets the scene; small
watercolors of family photos bridge the gap,
and fantastic imagined landscapes full of
gorgeous, doomed super-women complete the
relationship between my actual life and my
fantasy life. I consider all my work to be
self-portraiture, from the altered images of
my own body to the source photos I take in
my neighborhood on the South Side of
Chicago.
My work is a sincere quest to find and push
my own cosmic pleasure button: to isolate,
recreate, and then share my fantasy world as
it parallels evidence of real life. Often,
my investigation leads me to moments where
the self-constructed gender of childhood
gives way to frightening truths about
womanhood, or to the feelings one finds
where the longing for a distant rock star
meets burgeoning sexuality.
I wish to synthesize the detritus of a life
spent in compulsive absorption: recreating
the feeling of the interior, private world
when it is infiltrated by a foreign
stimulus. It is in the feeling of holding a
handed-down vampire comic, the mysterious
authorship of late-night cable access, the
secret of finding something discarded by the
world that then becomes your own private
object. It is a place of self-indulgent
invention, the code language of reference
and appropriation, and the poignant
specificity of a bedroom scene. |